{"id":7913,"date":"2020-01-13T23:01:43","date_gmt":"2020-01-13T23:01:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.donnaionadrozda.com\/lifecycle\/?p=7913"},"modified":"2020-01-13T23:01:43","modified_gmt":"2020-01-13T23:01:43","slug":"after-the-earthquake","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.donnaionadrozda.com\/lifecycle\/after-the-earthquake\/","title":{"rendered":"After the Earthquake"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0The first handmade trail at the tree farm retreat in 2013<\/span><\/span><\/h4>\n

After the earthquake, I was pretty scared. Terrified really. It’s not easy to tell when I’m scared. My history has prepared me well to soldier on…soldier\/shoulder\/should. <\/span><\/h4>\n

I should be able to handle whatever comes.<\/em><\/strong>\u00a0<\/span><\/h4>\n

I can. I can. I can manage whatever happens. I’ll make it. I can do this. Can you identify? It’s a form of being unstoppable. It’s a form of courage in the face of trauma. There is a lot of current and historic trauma on our planet. You’ve noticed this, yes?\u00a0<\/span><\/h4>\n

noun,<\/span><\/span>\u00a0plural<\/span>\u00a0trau\u00b7mas,<\/span>\u00a0trau\u00b7ma\u00b7ta<\/span>\u00a0\u00a0[trou<\/span>-muh<\/span>-tuh<\/span>,\u00a0traw<\/span>-]<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>.<\/span><\/h3>\n
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Pathology<\/span><\/span>.<\/span><\/p>\n

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  1. a body wound or shock produced by sudden physical injury, as from violence or accident.<\/span><\/li>\n
  2. the condition produced by this; traumatism.<\/span><\/li>\n<\/ol>\n<\/div>\n
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    Psychiatry<\/span><\/span>.<\/span><\/p>\n

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    1. an experience that produces psychological injury or pain.<\/span><\/li>\n
    2. the psychological injury so caused.<\/span><\/li>\n<\/ol>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

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      Last year, as a result of the dog\/squirrel\/boot\/root fall I was offered an opportunity to STOP. The effects of the fall were so frightening that I had to <\/span>STOP.\u00a0 I instinctively knew to review the roots of trauma in my history. Not to belabor. I’m a proponent of the Buddhist teaching, ‘Don’t look in the rearview mirror.’ I understood this was not about rehashing, this was actually the need to not waste a moment and to quickly segue into a deeper level of my healing practice. Metta healing.<\/span><\/h4>\n

      It takes a minute to call up the resiliency required to face inner demons. It’s challenging to move beyond the fear. I was literally held in place by this injury. There was nothing I could do. My body required all of my resources. At seventy this is sobering. I kept hearing echoes of my father’s mantra, repeated for years before his death in 2005, ‘I don’t want to be a burden.’ I could understand why this was resonating through me.<\/span><\/h4>\n

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      I didn’t realize it consciously at first, however, in a review, I discovered that I hadn’t been paying close attention. The call for a shift appeared in my morning writing practice. Weeks before the accident I found myself feeling agitated. In my writing I found myself using a word I had never used before. Twitchy. I was telling myself that I was feeling ‘twitchy’. The word itself made me more curious. Such a strange word. Where did this word come from?\u00a0 It had something to do with my next step. I’ll share more about that with you later.<\/span><\/h4>\n

      Several days before the fall I laid my journal down on my studio floor, I placed my bare right foot (the boot\/root foot) onto the page and traced around the outline asking, ‘What’s my next step?’ I traced the foot that was going to take me down! I asked, ‘What’s my next step?’ !!\u00a0<\/span><\/h4>\n

       <\/p>\n

      I didn’t know that a fear pattern was rising to the surface. <\/span><\/h4>\n

      Then the earthquake created the rift and the monster was released. <\/span><\/h4>\n

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      frontal magnification of ant \u00a9 Mihai Andritoiu<\/a>| Dreamstime.com<\/span><\/div>\n

      It wanted to devour me.\u00a0 I couldn’t run away. <\/span><\/h4>\n

      After the emergency room visit, I sat quietly in my bed. Just me and a low dose of morphine to dull pain that would make a grown man cry. (weeks later, I speak with a man at physical therapy in the beginning stages of healing from a similar break, he is a hulk of a guy and he cries from the pain). I sat in the quiet. I practiced deep breathing. It occurred to me to ask myself if there had ever been a time when I had experienced anything anywhere close to this. The clear and certain answer came back; ‘Yes. When you were nineteen.’\u00a0<\/span><\/h4>\n

      I want to share that mythic journey with you. It will be done in installments. It’s beyond a Humpty Dumpty tale. I don’t yet know the way in which I’ll put the pieces together. It’s a mystical and magical albeit traumatic tale all at the same time. I hope I can let it come through.\u00a0<\/span><\/h4>\n

      <\/h4>\n

      \"\"<\/p>\n

      \u201cHappiness is when what you think, what you say,<\/span>
      \nand what you do are in harmony.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

      \u2013 Mahatma Gandhi<\/span><\/p>\n

      Much love to you as we travel new trails into 2020 … paying attention.<\/span><\/h4>\n

      \"\"<\/p>\n

      Junebug on the creek trail, 2020<\/span><\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      P. S. My recently published Lifecycle Forecast (now in its 24th year) explores a bit of ground-work for the new year:<\/span><\/p>\n

      Pay Attention<\/a><\/h4>\n

      I invite you to set everything to one side and have a listen\u00a0<\/span><\/h4>\n

       <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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